I hate feeling like this. I don't want to do anything, I'm not setting anything up to do...I just feel crappy. My heart hurts. I know it's not about Tia (my x-girl). It's deeper then that. I know she was the band-aid that was covering my pain for the past year. I wish I had my band-aid back, I don't feel like feeling like this! Rrrrrr!
I can barley feel my fire lately. I want it back too!
I know I have to go through this. I know I always push these feelings away; feelings of emptiness, and aloneness. I just want to FUCK them away. I know I shouldn't. It's taken me so long to get to this place. This place of Pure Empty Stillness.
My shrink says "It's the most Human feeling". I have so much contempt for it though. I just want to run fast, and not look back. I always assign my bad feelings toward myself on the emptiness, and never really feel it. I will try tonight to stay with it.
I'll let you know what happens.
I hate feeling like this. I don't want to do anything, I'm not setting anything up to do...I just feel crappy. My heart hurts. I know it's not about Tia (my x-girl). It's deeper then that. I know she was the band-aid that was covering my pain for the past year. I wish I had my band-aid back, I don't feel like feeling like this! Rrrrrr!
I can barley feel my fire lately. I want it back too!
I know I have to go through this. I know I always push these feelings away; feelings of emptiness, and aloneness. I just want to FUCK them away. I know I shouldn't. It's taken me so long to get to this place. This place of Pure Empty Stillness.
My shrink says "It's the most Human feeling". I have so much contempt for it though. I just want to run fast, and not look back. I always assign my bad feelings toward myself on the emptiness, and never really feel it. I will try tonight to stay with it.
I'll let you know what happens.
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