Fuck Spell Check!

Shit! I've been in my own nether world to long. I've been busy finishing some projects, but for the most part, I've been really beating the shit out of myself. At about 3:30a this morning, I decided that I wasn't going to fall asleep. I gut dressed, turned on the computer, and worked till the sun came up. There was no reason, no deadline, no urgency. I just couldn't turn my brain off, which is very rare for me. The sun came up, and I went to Kellogs diner down the street. I've been in slow motion all day. I'll sleep well tonight.

The other night I went out for drinks with a friend of mine. He knows the bar tender, so we drank for about 5 hours for free. The fucked up thing is, now I know that bar tender. I don't want to start drinking. That's not the way I want to go.

I haven't fucked in days, weeks even. There's this girl I like. She's far away. The last few times I fucked, I was just thinking of her. It just wasn't any good. It made me sad that it wasn't her. Maybe I just haven't found any good fuck buddies lately. Maybe that's just something I'm telling myself. I'm fucked. Shit.

We've never even met face to face. We e-mail everyday. I really feel her...I'm fucked.

I don't want a long distance thing. If it's a thing at all? Maybe I'm just trying to distract myself. Maybe it's just something in my head. My creation, that means nothing outside of my head. I think I'm trying to convince myself out of how I feel. I don't think it's working.

It's not what I want though. The person, yes. The geography, no fucking way.

I'm going to stop thinking about that now.

I finished my promo page for Le Book. It's the picture thats up. I was going to use a beautiful fashion picture for my promo. This is the shot I chose for this year. I like it a lot.

I did good without spell check today.

Comments

[Dark Forest]

but never the less, i can see this is a real and passionate love.
maybe you can meet somewhere in the middle, like london, eat fish&chips, walk along the pier, and make hot love all day and night. ;)

[cooper]

Nice photo.
I don;t thnk you can really feel anyone that you haven't met; it's more of a fantasy you have built up in your mind.

[lilly]

Funny, I'm having the same situation with a long distance guy I like, what a coincident...

I really like this shot by the way, it's one of those shots that took me a while to fully get, and themore I look it it, the better I like it.

[Victoria E]

Props to you for doing so well without spell check, and on so little sleep as well!

The ad that you did is a great one; i'm sure that Storm will be honored when you tell her as well ;)

I hope that you and I have a chance to work together before I move next year :O